[ At least this is one more reason he'll never be happy with this arrangement; she's doing it gladly, out of kindness, and he's repaying it by lying through omission to her. who needs a hundred-fifty years' worth of guilt as a soulless demon, when you're still shitty even with a soul?

speaking of shitty, selfish things... Angel takes a deep breath. ] You could knock. [ he tries to sound casual, but knows he's completely missing the mark, and hitting awkward instead. ] I'd answer. Look, Buffy... This place... this isn't home. Thinking this place would let me forget, for an instant, what I am, and what I'm capable of? I was thrown by the fact that you were already here... What I'm saying is... I love you, and I want to at least be awkward friends. I miss you. And that's never gonna change.

And if not-- [ he raised his hands a little, in surrender. ] That's - fine. I just wanted to put it on the table, the rules are different here, it just took me a while to grasp that.